When I left university ten years ago, full of enthusiasm and big ideas, I was not prepared for what came next.
Instead of stepping onto the first rung of the career ladder and gradually ascending to the top, I was floundering. I’d chosen a major (or two) but couldn’t choose a career.
I felt lost and couldn’t understand why everyone else around me seemed to be moving forward while I was stuck on the spot.
Eventually I took a job that somewhat resembled something I might be vaguely interested in. It only took three months before I was crying most nights when I got home because I hated it so much.
So I went back to university, this time trying a different path. I graduated (again), got a job in the field (again) and this time it took a little longer for the misery to set in – but it did. And this time I felt even more like a failure because it was my second time around. So I stuck it out for a few years.
In the meantime, I studied life coaching in my spare time, hoping to find some of the missing pieces. And while I practiced as a life coach on the side and helped others change their lives, I couldn’t get past that same old nagging feeling that something wasn’t right in my own life. Plus my day job still sucked.
Eventually I couldn’t take it anymore, so I went back to university a third time. Third time’s the charm, right? I’m not so sure.
Einstein said that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting a different result.
After another round of university, I graduated (again), but knowing I didn’t want to pursue a career in that field, went back to my previous job. I was getting closer to figuring it out, but I felt like the biggest failure ever: this time I’d actually taken a step backwards.
I signed up for an online journaling course to help me find some answers and I happened upon the missing piece of the puzzle: my creativity. More specifically, creative journaling.
I’d been journaling for years on and off, but not in a consistent and effective way. I sometimes journaled, but I didn’t have a journaling practice.
Using the tool of creative journaling allowed me to approach everything in a different way. Instead of tackling the issue of what was missing from my life in a logical way, I found a heart-centered, intuitive, right brain approach.
I turned inwards. I let my soul speak to me. I asked myself the big questions: Who am I, really? What do I really want? What’s getting in the way?
Before this I didn’t realise how much I relied on my logic, intellect and left brain to answer these questions. What I needed was a way to connect with my intuition and creativity – something journaling allowed me to do easily, cheaply and repeatedly.
I was able to take what I’d learnt as a coach, and apply the tools in my journal. The process became tangible. I could see a path unfolding before me and my journal became a map out of the fog.
Every time I felt lost I could return to the page to find my way. Slowly, things became clearer.
And – I don’t know how to say this without it sounding incredibly cheesy – my whole life changed. I got clear, for the first time ever, about my dreams, my fears and how to move forward.
I realised that if I could use my journal to completely transform my life after a decade of feeling lost and hopeless, others could too. I could combine coaching and creativity to help others in the same way I had helped myself: to create a map to themselves and find a way out of the confusion, fear and doubt.
I want to save others the time, tears and years it cost me. I believe we have all the answers we need within, but we just don’t know how to listen. Life coaching combined with creative journaling is the best way I know how to access the wisdom we have within. I’d love to help you do the same.