The guilt is piling on thick today. Any mother, especially a working mother, knows what I'm talking about. It seems this tiny human being I made is hell-bent on ruining my life. Or at least it feels that way. And doesn't that sound just awful? This healthy, thriving, mostly-happy little boy has done nothing wrong, and yet I want to blame him for feeling crappy. I want to complain about my life. I've used my two dedicated work days this week - time when I have a babysitter so I can … [Read more...] about Thoughts on guilt and failure, as a mother and entrepreneur
I was recently reflecting in my journal about how motherhood has given me a real sense of purpose and certainty in my life. I wrote: I have never in my life felt such a feeling, such love for someone, such certainty about their presence in my life. This is true - of all the things in my life, the one thing I know for absolute 100% certain is that I will always be a mother to this little boy. I thought about how I didn't have this sense of purpose and certainty in my life before motherhood - … [Read more...] about Are motherhood and creativity one and the same?
I'm having a baby boy in January. This is our first baby, and naturally we are both pretty excited. But I'd be lying if I didn't say there is something playing on my mind about how much my life will change. This is going to sound super-selfish, and maybe that's just me, but I'm really worried about how much my creative self is going to suffer. I'm worried about being sucked into a void of diapers, breast milk, sleep routines and all-round exhaustion. I'm worried about losing … [Read more...] about My greatest fear about motherhood
I’ve been journaling since I was ten years old, but it wasn't until I committed to a regular journaling practice that things in my life began to really shift. I've maintained that practice for four years now and in that time a lot has changed in my life. I don’t think it is a coincidence that these positive changes have happened since I’ve been journaling consistently. In fact, my experience has shown me that regular journaling is one of the best tools we can use to transform our … [Read more...] about How journaling can change your life
Basically, they are three pages written by hand first thing each morning. They are simply stream-of-consciousness and can be repetitive, whiny, complaining - there are no rules for the content, simply that you get out whatever is in your head onto the page, without stopping, for three pages. Another way of looking at them is as a 'brain dump' to get everything out of your mind. It is the junk in our mind that blocks us creatively, which is why the pages work well as a tool for creative … [Read more...] about An introduction to morning pages
The personal journal is your 'dear diary' sort of journal, where you pour all your thoughts and feelings, hopes and dreams, fears and doubts onto the page. Some people argue that the terms 'journal' and 'diary' have different meanings - that a diary is to record daily events and experiences, whereas a personal journal is a lot more, well, personal. Regardless of what you call it, it's the sort of notebook where you are usually quite candid and it's the kind of thing you tend to keep … [Read more...] about Journal spotlight: Personal journal